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Notes: 11 / 2 years ago
Recent update
Me and Thao became friends again, it feels good. It feels good to have a sister like her back in my life. Things been back to normal it felt like nothing ever happen between us. We just been a tad sick, so can’t be adventurous as we were back then. But soon, soon! I spent most of my second winter break with her which was pretty good.
And of course with Thao back in my life, here comes along James lol.
I been spending a lot with Eddie and Char, great times with them. Redwood city girls that I met, man are they the shit, I have so much fun with them. We all click like nothing.
Everything has been great when it comes with friends wise. Just a tad stressed out from school. Which is for me to blame, sometimes I wonder why do I do this, why do I get so lazy to get up for school, with my attitude like this, I sure am going no where. I need to change things up and not only with school but with everything.
I mean yeah, I have no rights to be mad, but hey I’m only human. It irritates and hurts so much seeing or hearing that Johnny and Jeanette are hanging out. Yeah I may had hurt Johnny but did he forget all the things we been through and who we were to each other. But damn to see him resolve shit with everyone else and me and him are still like this, it hurts and kill me so much inside. But hey what do I expect as more months pass by, I get to the end realizing we’ll never be back. I miss him at times but I’m learning to live my life without him. I mean he’s doing it, why must I dwell. Sigh but at times, how could I not miss his big head, the way he makes me feel and how I felt if I had him, theres no fear of anything or any worries towards the stress of the world. But I’m glad to see him happy. It just hurts to see him happy without me.
So I finally found out all this long Lindsey had a tumblr, there wasnt much to read. I mean honestly I learn to live without her from day one when we went separate ways, but at times I can’t help it with my big heart I still care. So I found out her and Sai broked up, not sure on what the reasons were, but by her recent blog, she is hurting. I was a bit surprised when I felt myself hurting as well to hearing about her pain. I still care for her a lot, I really wish I can reach out and try to be there for her, but with the way things are between me and her and how long it has been since we last talk, I just can’t. Yeah, maybe it has to do with my pride and ego, but really? I should only have to care a limit, I tried reaching out when I found out about her grandma and then she started mugging me after… uhh no thanks. But honestly I wish the best for her, it must really hurt.
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